jojoanna

I hope this works out :-/

This will be the kick in the ass I need to, well, get off my ass!   *crosses fingers*

new years always makes me cry, i don't really understand why. i think it's sort of like, as i get older i realize how fast time really goes by, and every year that goes by i realized i didn't do all of the things i set out and wanted to do. though this year was pretty productive, i got my license, a car, and began working on me and michaels house. things are really moving forward, i just wish i wasn't being forced out of my job, especially around the holidays. i wake up almost every day with a pain in my heart and stress everywhere else just thinking about how this recession is directly effecting me, no matter where i go no one is hiring and i literally have no money in the bank, it's a really scary time and i wish i could just be happy and live my life like it seems everyone else is doing comfortably. i don't know... woo hoo 2009 is on its way, its up to me to break the cycle of crying every time i hear auld lang syne, lol.

I am glad that I have the political stance that I do, it really boggles my mind when people truly don't believe a person should have freedom over their bodies. Like, who do you think you are? Not just the specific people I'm talking about but the country in general, who in their sane mind feels it necessary to say that they want a say over another human beings body that they don't even know, never will know, and probably wouldn't care to ever know. Politics in general to me are a bunch of bull, the government is a corrupt place. But whats even scarier are the people living among us.

what the hell am i going to do now?

so me and my mom started painting today. what a job ahead of us! i am so excited though, because the house will be amazing and it will have a true joanna and mike feel. even though mike isnt helping with painting he is paying for everything and doing most of the cleaning, which is a fair trade to me.

mike is supposed to be talking to some managers of his at retrievex about getting me a job in the filing department, i am more than broke and it's really having an effect on my psyche.

i feel bad that i almost couldnt hang out with krystin on her 21st birthday, i made plans but i just cancled them, or pretty much delayed them. even though i want to be there i'd rather be with krystin, she really is one of my closest friends.

there is a 32oz tub of honey roasted peanuts next to my bed and i am salivating at the thought of them, i must depart.

so  i'm hoping this excitment of driving everywhere doesn't wear off real soon, the only down fall is i have no money. i have come to the conclusion at this point in my life i am working so i can drive myself to work, pretty sad. i sent my resume to 4 different places and still havent heard diddly-squat. i would really love to work for the peabody school system, and they have 3-4 job openings in a job i am totally qualified to do. i suppose if all this falls through i can be a lunch lady, lol. i ate death by chocolate icecream last night with hot fudge.. and indeed i think i might die. i blame my period 100% i wont be doing that EVER AGAIN...even though it was SO GOOD!

i did it, i passed :D 

ok so i failed my first try, who cares right? up again next week and i'm not going to fall into this whole defeated mode that i get into every time something gets to hard. i...will..be...MOBILE!

...what makes me, me. because i haven't figured that out yet apparently. 

well today was a fairly productive/interesting day. i did my first genuinely good deed.

me and mike were heading to the village pancake house in rowley for breakfast. as we were driving i noticed the car infront of us take a turn and a medium sized adorable scottish terrior fell out and rolled onto the highway! in total shock i screamed and then mike turned into the gas station which the dog walked over to. i got out of the car and just put my arms out and the dog ran right to me! i brought it in mikes car and we just sat there for a minute trying to figure out what to do. upon investigating the dog we noticed its vaccination tag said kendall county, which we later learned was in illinois, so we knew this dog was definitely not from around here. to add insult to injury the people had no idea they were sans dog and kept driving. so i did what i always do when i'm in a pinch, call my dad. i gave him the number on the dogs tag and he called and talked to this man who apparently was the father of the daughter who so carelessly let her dog fall out of the window. he said that he was on the other line with his daughter who was frantically crying and explained to her that we had the dog. so we then met up at a diner on the highway and returned the dog to its rightful owner, they were so great full they gave me and mike $40. so needless to say we did a good deed and got some free breakfast out of the deal :)

i've been wishing for this hot weather for months and now that its here all i want to do is sleep! but thats ok, before, i would sleep because its too cold and i'd be all achy from crawling into the fetal position to keep warm, now i just feel relaxed! i went to the willows after work with nina and livi and picked sea glass and played at the arcade which was fun, but it has left me with a kickin' migraine :(

me and mike are going out tonight to see forgetting sarah marshal, i am anticipating it to be extremely funny! i am in love with jason segel and i don't care who knows it.

one good thing is that since i was one of the first people to give my boss my availability for the summer i pretty much got the hours i wanted! i'll be working tuesday-friday 7:45am-1pm leaving my entire day to myself! and once july rolls around the lab is closed on fridays so i will have a 4 day weekend every weekend til mid august!  i'm hoping to use some of that time to work on mikes house while he will be at work. i find i work best alone, lol. i don't need no man to help me decorate *snaps fingers*

i really wonder what is going to come of this donna-scott drama, these poor kids are the ones who are going to be forever tainted because of it, but i guess you just have to let nature take its course. divorces are tough no matter what.

i don't write in this nearly enough but it's because nothing of any interest happens anymore. i am looking forward to long summer night drives and hanging out with good friends, mcdonald's kiddie cones and the smell of bbq's in the air, and most importantly, no school! alana and angelia will be coming up this summer as well, so i hope to be spending lots and lots of quality time with them because they are the shit- coolest teens i know.

also be on the lookout for my new found appreciation for all things crafty, i've already started sewing, hot gluing, painting and planning so who knows what i am capable of!


thats about it for now

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weight watchers has been taking a back seat lately, though no one can 'see' a difference i can feel it in myself, im bringing back old habits, creating new bad ones, and just all around back stuff. it seems like when im happy i don't care what i eat but when im stressed or depressed i focus on it like nobodies business. well im not getting stressed but im getting back on track! i want to be like, super sexy this summer and blow everybody away! wish me luck!

Mike started working at ARMs this week, so he is really excited to now have a real job that makes real money. Which now leaves it up to me to find a real job, and make real money. Though since I am in school the thought of that always freaked me out, and especially since we will be moving in together soon it's becoming more of a reality than a fantasy.  My idea is to transfer out of the wellness and healing program and into the paraeducator program for which I only need 4 more classes.  If i put my mind to it I can take 4 classes next semester and have my certificate by December. Then I will be able to get a real job at a public school as a teachers aid and then from there take night classes for as long as I need to till I go as far as I want to, live at Mike's place comfortably and live happily ever after. Oh if life only went as we hoped it would go... let's see what gets in my way this time...


PS - I am super excited that law got passed, now I should be getting my $600 check from the government, sahhh-weeeet!

this vacation could not have come at a better time! i finally get to sleep late, which is awesome, no work or school. to update from my last blog, i finally got all the money i was owed! go me! i am no longer poor.

so mike got his cat today, his name is patches and he's adorable! i was pretty dissapointed since me and him really had no say in picking out the cat or anything, but honestly, it doesnt matter anymore. i'm not living there yet, so i'm not going to think about it.

hopefully me and him can move in together by this fall, i'm fine with waiting that long, it would be scary to move away on a whim, but i really cant wait. i'm ready to be out on my own, and if i get home sick i'll only be like, 5 minutes away.  after making a list of things i want to do in the house before i moved in i realized it wasnt as much as i had anticipated, which is good because 1. we dont have much money and 2. just makes things easier.

were going to the peabody essex museum tomorrow to check out the cool origami exhibit and the tattoo exhibit as well. were so smart, we went to the library and got a few free passes so much less of a financial burden lol.

i'm totally in the mood to watch one flew over the cuckoo's nest, so i'm finished.

i'm totally sick of not getting paid my rightful check every week, its like a constant struggle to just be where i should be, no more, no less. gah i hate confrontation. i have to call and yell at someone tomorrow :o

mikes sleeping over tonight, that should be fun :)

my pet fishies are doing great, still alive! though i think they may have a beef with each other at the moment, one keeps swimming up behind the other one and freaks him out. ooo the world of fish.. how complex.

bought new shoes today, pretty sweet. pictures up later ;x

so cristina had her baby yesterday, little girl named daniella. i still can't believe she is a mom. it's really weird when people you knew when you were younger have babies, really makes you feel like your missing something in your life. like its time to grow up but your not ready, then again who is ever ready? bah. random thoughts.

got my new camera in the mail yesterday, been playing with it ever since 

not too much to say, down to about 185 (w00t) nothing interesting has happened since new years. except i saw rent in boston! pretty sweet :) more later.

So, 12 months has passed since the last New Year.. I remember exactly what I was doing.. complaining about working at 8AM the next day! Well, thank goodness that is no longer an issue. Kinda crazy, all the stuff I did this year, all the stuff I've learned, and all the people I've met, and all the people I have lost. This is definitely one for the history books. I hope that by this time next year I will have a lot more wonderful memories and hopefully some new friends as well. I also better still be on Weight Watchers!!! As of tonight, 12/31/07 I weight 187 pounds, which makes for a grand total loss of 35 pounds!  Wish me luck this year, I hope I can keep my momentum!